Tuesday, March 1, 2011

a Good, very bad day

Yesterday was quite the day.  First, the good.

welcome to my dining room.


I totally, completely finished my magazine project!  It is DONE, and I'm so glad.  It took awhile for the weight of that to really lift off my shoulders, but then it felt so good!  I am asking the magazine if I can show you just a few tidbits, so hopefully they'll say "yes"!  I'm not sure I'll be rushing to do another big magazine project, since I really missed being able to share the progress with you.  And I'm not really sure that the money and stress of working under a deadline is 100% worth it.  On the up side, it was a good opportunity.  I do have a better feel for the giant challenge that writing a book would be after this experience. 

ready to sew!

My treat to myself as I made progress on the magazine quilt was to organize my fabric (inspired by Jeni's post). It's totally a guilty pleasure and feels a little like stealing chocolate, but it did serve some purpose besides the satisfaction of taking a few glamorous shots.  My fabric had not been organized since this post, summer of last year when I first brought my fabric into my dining room buffet. 

fresh stash

Whilst tidying, I discovered small cuts that really belonged in my scrap bin and figured out to fold my fat quarters a bit differently than my yardage so that I could still see them once stacked.

oh the Cuteness!

When I was thoroughly pleased with my cupboard, I pulled out these cute Michael Miller prints stashed earlier this year from Sew Love Fabrics. It's high time I make something with them.

So, now starts the bad. 

I don't want to go into too much detail, but I found myself really down over some heavy criticism and personal attacks.  I think that being misunderstood is one of the worse feelings.  In this particular situation I'm not sure how best to proceed.  I don't care to argue.  I only want to be true.  To make matters worse, my husband is away on a missions trip just now so I couldn't talk to him at all.

I'm trying to just put some distance between my hurt feelings and the time when I will take some thoughtful action to make sure all is well.  In the meantime, I'm trying not to dwell on it, because it really makes me so very sad.

new project!

Along those lines, I played with those super cute Michael Miller fabrics last night to take my mind off things.  I followed the fabric's lead until I had a very happy, very outgoing little fabric stack.  What do you think?

hello, quilt in progress

Well, really, it's too late now cause I already did allllllll the cutting for a new quilt.  Here's a sneak peak.  I'll be back to show you the whole quilt top sooner rather than later. 

53 comments:

  1. I love that sneak peek! So sorry that you are dealing with the sadness. I hope that things resolve well for you and the other person involved.

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  2. I really don't understand the mentality of those who think it's okay to be unkind. The anonimity of the interent has unleased a new form of bully that we can all live without. I know 99% of the thoughtless jerks would never have the guts to say to someone's face what they say in cyberspace. That said, please try to not let them get to you. It's what they want. Look at the volume of good you do and take comfort and joy in that. Delete the dopes. I thank you for your service.

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  3. Wow..love your fabric..that inspires me to do some cleaning! And I'm sorry about your bad day.

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  4. Fabric therapy is good fer what ails ya.... I'm sorry the rabble is harassing you.

    (((((Rachel)))))

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  5. I'm sorry to hear you've had a rough time. I agree that playing with some fun fabric is a great way to escape negativity, especially when there are hedgehogs involved.

    Hang in there.

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  6. Gorgeous fabric combo! You are such a talented lady, and your gifts have been entrusted to you by your heavenly Father. He doesn't make mistakes and his opinion of you & what you do is the only one that matters. Take pleasure from your sunny, happy fabrics and the abilities & blessings God has put around you. Stay strong. Judith/Rags to Bags xo

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  7. I'm sorry to hear about your sadness. I know I am so grateful for your blog and the Pillow Party and the fun it brings to the online quilting community. I am also so jealous of your wonderful fabric stash!

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  8. Okay first of all, YUM at your stash! It looks so pretty!! I'm going to link it up on the reader stash page! :)

    Second, blarg at the sadness. What a major bummer! I agree with Mickey, I think sometimes people can be more cruel through the internet since they can hide behind their computers! :( Sorry to hear that someone got to you! I've been lucky and have only had a handful of negativity thrown my way, but it can be really hurtful. Sending hugs! And know that there are so many of us who love your blog and everything you're doing! :)

    Love the progress on your new quilt!

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  9. Big virtual hug coming your way! You know you should not let these things get to you but they always do! Words really do hurt.
    And then there's pretty fabrics! The very best solution - always ;-)

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  10. Some people just really suck. I hope you won't dwell too long on whatever they said to you, because you are obviously not deserving of it.

    Those fabrics are so pretty all stacked up :)

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  11. Sorry to hear you got some bad comments. I can't imagine what would possess people do be so mean. If it was about the Pillow Party, I think it was good. I participated and though I didn't have the 'best' pillow or whatever I still enjoyed joining in :).

    Cheer up! Enjoy your newly organize fabric stash.

    Keep up the great work!

    -Q

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  12. I've had problems like you describe before, and nothing I could do would alter the other's issues. I learned that I can only be me, and be true to what I know is right, and that is enough. Some folks just can't see it the same way. Hang in there.

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  13. I had a bad day too yesterday and then did some sewing therapy! Always helps. Mine was just a "frustrated with a four year old" kind of day, so that is easier resolved. Hope yours works out in time. Love the sneak peak, can't wait to see more!

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  14. First, I was all ready to read that some of the good news was that your LOVE pillow was picked amongst the finalists on Sew Mama Sew's words to live by pillow contest -- please tell me you know this and congrats!!! I already voted for you and another participate from the Blogger Pillow Party!

    Second, your fabrics look lovely!!!

    Third, I can relate in how it feels to be attacked in this way all too well! I have been dealing with some hurtful stuff amongst fellow artists in my community. It is such a baffling situation, I have decided to not get involved in a back and forth and this has seemed to just fuel them even more. It's so sad how some people can be.

    We love you Rachel!!!

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  15. Why would someone be mean? Usually, underneath it all, it's because they're jealous or insecure or both. It's not always easy to see that and it's not always easy to get perspective at the time these things happen. I find the best remedy is to have a good email bitchfest with someone I like and trust in this community. I've had a few nasty moments in my time in blogland and have a little handful of people I rush to and go nuts over the email and feel a while lot better. Childish really! Keep your chin up and don't let the losers spoil your day :-( XXX

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  16. Love the fabrics your working with and can't wait to see the quilt.
    I'm so sorry that someone has thoughtlessly hurt your feelings.
    I love your blog and your work, I'm working on a colorbrick quilt at the moment and eventually hope to catch up on the Ticker tape quilt when I have more scraps, I've not been quilting long enought yet ;)
    I have to say this seems to be happening more often lately, 2 of the other blogs I regularly read have had the same problem.
    That is a real shame I was always taught that if I had nothing good to say, not to say anything at all.
    I also sympathise with your Husband being away , mine is in the UK Forces an it's hard when something happens and they aren't there to talk it through.
    Just remember your blog and work are enjoyed by lots whilst those that are catty are few.

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  17. It never fails to amaze me how many douchebags there are online who have nothing better to do than collect bad karma. Spitting in the wind comes back at u twice as hard...
    And I love your fabric! I think I might rest my cupinal tunnel arms by sorting my fabric as yours looks so good!

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  18. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT! I really needed (need) it.

    Oh, thanks, Maureen! And, no I didn't know. That's very fun news! Thanks =)

    It's hard to hold back (I'm a darn good debater LOL), but I agree it seems to be the best approach. I'm praying for peace.

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  19. Rachel,
    You seem like such an amazing woman! I know that criticism & personal attacks are hard to ignore, but hopefully you'll be able to just ignore them. You've got a lot on your plate, and there's no way to please everyone.

    HUGS!

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  20. It seems like there is so much wisdom and kind advice given to you by the people above! It's so nice to know there are many kind and caring people behind the comments/computers that are left. I think anyone who has had a blog, has been affected by a few people who are not so kind. I'll be thinking of you, because I've been there too and it's not so much fun.

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  21. I don't understand why some people insist on critizing when it is so much easier to compliment. I hope your day is progressing nicely and that you have been able to put away some of your sadness. I love the Michael Miller fabrics you decided to work with. If you ever get bored you could come over and work on folding my fabrics - lol :)

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  22. The fabrics you picked out are so cute together!
    And big (((hugs))). Some people just seem to thrive on drama and will attack people to cause it. It's so frustrating and hurtful when criticism is personal. I hope it can be resolved soon.

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  23. Hey, Rachel! Congrats on getting the magazine project finished. I can't wait to see it. And sorry about the haters. We were talking about this at work yesterday--unfortunately, some people are just mean and unhappy. Try not to let it get you down!

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  24. Oh you know I love those fabrics! Can't wait to see what you've got in store. And I really can't wait to see what you've been working on for Stitch! I'm glad you found some solace in a bright, happy project. Keep your chin up. :)

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  25. Yay for fabric therapy!! It's inspiring to see your focus on the positive.

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  26. Well I don't know what to say that hasn't already been said, but really I agree with Lynne--it's usually jealousy or insecurity speaking when people unleash their venom, particularly when they have the cowardly option of remaining anonymous via the internet. Boo on the big mean chickens!

    Hugs to you, you know I love your blog and all you do. Lovin' the MM inspired quiltiness, too!! And of course I can't wait to see your magazine project--anticipation makes it more fun!

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  27. Oh it is never fun to be attacked...and it's the worst when it comes out of the blue. I've had that happen to me more times than I care to admit. I must be an easy target. I don't know...sometimes when you do nice things for people they don't understand how to accept that. And they want everything. I'm so sorry that you've had to go through any of this. And definitely deserve some retail therapy. ;)

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  28. You seem like such a nice person and I'm very sorry you've had some unkind comments. I hope things look better soon!

    Fabric therapy is good for what ails ya. I can't wait to see your new quilt, and your magazine project. Congrats!

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  29. Your fabrics are yummy. Makes me want to organize my stash now!
    Sorry for being down about all that...Ihope it gets better soon. If it helps, I think you're pretty wonderful! I mean, you drink raw milk for pete's sake! it's so yummy!

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  30. I'm so sorry someone is being unkind. That really stinks out loud.
    On the bright side, I'm loving the fabrics you've put together. And I can't wait to hear about your magazine project.

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  31. Beautiful stash! Your pictures are so good.

    I think you're taking the best approach. Some thoughtful distance to think and then a decision on how to approach a discussion. It's up to us to set boundaries on how people treat us. Sometimes you just have to remove the toxicity

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  32. so sorry to hear about your stinky day, rachel. if you're anything like me you probably want everyone to like you, but when you put yourself out there you're bound to run across people who want to bring you down. i hope you're able to ignore whatever criticism they threw your way (ah, if only i could take my own advice). but for what it's worth, i think you're awesome and am so glad to have befriended you here in blogland.

    and ps, i love what you've been working on! can't wait to see the rest!

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  33. Sorry to hear that someone has you down, but big, huge, happy congratulations on finishing your project!

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  34. awesome on your mag project, how fun! and total bummer on the bad stuff, been there - for sure!

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  35. I love that a creative outlet such as designing can truly lift the spirit. I've found great solace in just 'creating' and moving my mind to another place.

    Seam rippers are always good too. ;)

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  36. Those fabrics are so great together, can't wait to see what they become :)
    And please take comfort in all of us that have your back! Any bad comment towards someone who is doing such amazing good works has to be stemmed from jealousy.
    Shame on them!!
    (((hugs)))

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  37. I think your quilt will be great, can't wait to see the rest. Sorry about your worries, I hope it passes. You are wonderfully creative and I love to read your blogs. Have fun with the new quilt.

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  38. It is so hard when things like this happen in life..time does usually help and as I am finding there are a lot of wonderful caring people out here in the land of bloggers. Just write it on the blackboard and erase it!!!!!

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  39. I agree with every one of these comments! So sorry you were the brunt of someone's negativity.

    Just one more person here who loves your blog and admires all the hard work you put into the charity bee.

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  40. I'm excited to see what you've done for the magazine -- I hope they let you give us some sneaky peeks. :)

    And I am so envious of your neat and tidy fabric collection!

    I don't think there is anything I can say that hasn't been said already, but I think you are right to just hold your tongue and pray for peace...as hard as it may be. I would bet that the spiteful one(s) would probably just LOVE to debate with you, and continue like a dog with a bone until you felt even more beat down...and that's no good. :) So, just let them think what they want to think, and know in your heart that who you are, what you are doing, and (most importantly) what you are empowering others to do is a blessing to SO many of us.

    It's hard to do, but thank you for putting yourself out there, and thank you for helping us make the world a more beautiful place.

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  41. Congrats on finishing your magazine project and getting all organized. Love the fabric you picked for the new quilt.

    So sorry to hear about the negative situation you are dealing with, you really don't deserve that. I had a situation where a neighbor left us a really mean, upsetting anonymous note (but we were pretty sure we knew who they were).

    I think it is easy in these situations to want to engage and strike back and applaud you for not being taken to their level. I do thunk it is easy to still demonize the person even while biting your tongue and found it helped bring me peace to think about what makes someone react in that way and become that kind of person and feel compassion for them. I also tried to think if there was any validity to what they were saying beneath the hateful way it was delivered, and used that as part of my response - eg it is unacceptable to treat people the way you treated me, but i also acknowledge the valid concern/thought/criticism you had and wish you had chosen to express it in a kind and constructive way.

    I know thinking this way can be frustrating because you are so justified in thinking as negatively about this person as the way they have treated you. I don't mean to imply that you deserve this or owe them anything, only that trying to muster all the compassion you can in your response may help you find peace. Sorry this got so long, I don't mean to be preachy and hope these thoughts are helpful to you. So sorry you have to go through this, especially while your husband is away. Sending you hugs.

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  42. Sorry to hear about the criticism but do your best to minimize its impact. Fabric therapy is good! I enjoy the blog and all the great projects. Thank you.

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  43. i love what the second commenter, Mickey said...

    and she is absolutely right. the anonymity of the internet is so enticing for some and with no repercussions they feel free to say anything.

    Now, many people who have commented assumed that it was an internet thing that got you down. But I had a terrible misunderstanding/fight with a sister of mine last year. It was terrible. We have since worked it out but it was a terrible time and I had such a sad heavy heart.

    I hope if your bad day stems from a familial issue that you are able to take comfort from all of the wonderful people who have voiced support to you on your blog. You are obviously loved and cared for by many. Your talent is inspiring. I do wish your husband was closer so he could give you a big ol' hug!

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  44. : ( I'm very sorry you about the criticisms and attacks. I hope you are feeling better.

    Attacks come from hurt and fear that is expressed in the wrong way. Just because it's said, doesn't mean it's true. So don't digest it as your. Just keep on keeping on and let that other person figure it out.

    You are clearly loved and admired by many!! Don't let ONE hold you back :D

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  45. Hey there! I'm just reading this but I'm sorry someone is being a pooper. You are better than that, and showing it. Hang in there!

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  46. I am oozing over your collection of fabrics at the moment! I hope some day I will have a collection like you have built up. I hope you are having a better day today :)

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  47. Hi Rachel! First of all, your stash looks great :) There's nothing like a big pile of fabric to make things better! Second, I'm so sorry to hear you've been on the receiving end of the negativity described in your post. I'd like to reiterate what a number of other people have said, and tell you that your blog and the way you bring people together is amazing, as is all of your sewing! I definitely know what it feels like to be caught up in thinking about negative comments from others, and I empathize with you on that front. I hope you're able to get past it soon, and get back to all the fun stuff in life!

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  48. "The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks."
    Luke 6:45
    I am fairly new to the blogging world and am still trying to figure it out and be some what consistent but I must say that your blog is the only one that I go to and check out everyday. You always have great ideas and your kind generous heart is evident in what you do. Don't let others steal for one second the joy and love you have for anything in your life. It is usually a jealous heart that tries to tear others down.

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  49. Now that a couple of days have passed since you were treated hurtfully, I hope that all the support and warm feelings coming your way have helped. Sending a big hug your way.

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  50. your fabric collection and organization make me droooooolll.. I am soooo jealous! Love it.

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  51. I am really slow on reading things. I just wanted to tell you two things. First of all, your fabric stash makes me happy just to look at it. The colors and patterns are just beautiful. The pictures are why I love to look at other people's blogs.

    Second, I am so impressed with the idea of a magazine article/project and will enjoy very much seeing it when it comes out!!! Wow.

    OK, three things. Mean people suck. That's extremely vulgar, I know, but so are mean people. The internet is great, because it lets us share and I am so grateful that you are willing to share your talents. The internet is also a perfect place for bullies and cowards to say nasty things without any compunction.

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